Feeling Compelled to write...

However, I am not 100% sure what I am supposed to write about. I thought at the beginning of this month my New Years resolution would be to write on my blog at least once a day or every other day for that matter. Nope, not making promises to myself I know I will indeed not follow through with. Doesn't make any sense.

I recently just finished a bible study with some dear friends. We read "What Happens When Women Say Yes to God" by Lisa TerKeurst. It was an eye opener to myself in many ways. It first opened my eyes to my relationship with God, my parenting skills, to my husband & kids and also to the ways I serve in my church. Through this study and the power of prayer I have been able to deepen my relationship with God. And because of that I have been able to see areas in my life that needed some adjusting. Life isn't about what I want. It's about what God wants, where He wants me and when. I have chosen to say yes to radical obedience and daily looking to Him for the guidance I need as well as looking at my daily tasks in a completely new light.

In a few weeks we will start a new book by Lisa called "Unglued". I.can't.wait!

On a whole other note my kids are fabulous! Arguing and fighting over this and that but that's expected, right? I know it's almost like payback for what JT & I put my parents through as children. I've learned to deal with it (for the most part) in a kind, loving manor talking with them gently as we resolve the issues that arise. R will be 5 in May and I am simply not ready. I'm also not ready to send him to kindergarten. I have my reasons...some of which are good and some that are sort of selfish. For example...any mom who is not ready for their child to be away for 7 hours a day, 5 days a week. Aggghhhhhhh😥

If you are reading this blog and feel compelled to pray for my family here are a few things we could use prayer about:
- r's school next year, where he will be
- our house: to rent or not to rent...that is the question. When ours was for sale it seemed as of every house on the block went up for sale. Well now lots more are for rent, lease, purchase. We are back in the competition 😕 a never ending battle
- if we rent our house, where do we move to? God please direct my family where we are to go so we can better serve you.
- to have another baby...back in dec we went to a high risk dr bc I was told by my obgyn it might not be a good idea to have another. (I have a past of preeclampsia and high blood pressure after delivery) high risk dr have us the ok to have another. I just want what's best for my family. I'm simply terrified something will happen to me and my sweet, hard working hubby will be left with 3 kids to raise on his own. That's not fair.

** Thank you for reading and praying for me & my family!!